After working so hard over the last year to lose weight and find a piece of myself that I knew I had lost, I also found out that my inner demon is an overweight young woman who sits at the depth of my brain ready to raid an ice cream shop at a moment's notice... Continue Reading →
Blowing Kisses in the Wind
Every time I pass the cemetery where my father is buried and the one where Timothy is buried, I always find myself blowing kisses, as if they are just sitting on an imaginary bench by the road, waiting to catch my kisses whenever my car passes. For nearly 14 years now, blowing kisses has become second nature... Continue Reading →
Somewhere Between Here and There
Somewhere between here and there is a place where so many things are possible... where your children behave without even a cross eye, the bills all get paid and there's money leftover at the end of every month, those vacation plans you've wanted to make for so long don't seem so out of reach and... Continue Reading →
Six Years Gone, But Maybe It’s Six Years Lived Too
Six years… 72 months… 313 weeks… 2191 days… 52,594 hours… 3,153,600 minutes… That’s how long Timothy’s been gone. It’s hard to believe really because it feels like just yesterday when it all happened – the accident, the hospital, the preparations, the wake, the funeral and then the moving on with our lives. Not a day... Continue Reading →
How to Save A Life
It's been almost six years since we lost my stepson in a four-wheeling accident. And after recently watching Grey's Anatomy and watching the fictional Meredith Grey have to sign the papers to disconnect her husband, "McDreamy," from the machines keeping him alive and standing by his bedside as he took his last breathe, my life was... Continue Reading →
Who are you? The 50 Word (and/or Phrase) Challenge – What Makes You, well You.
Sometimes we lose sight of who we are for no more reason other than life just gets too busy and taking a moment for ourselves seems like something we need to pencil into our own schedules. But this can happen to the best of us whether you are married with children or just married to your job.... Continue Reading →
Just Keep Swimming. Just Keep Swimming, Swimming, Swimming
When I was in college, I had these short-lived dreams of playing basketball for Webster University, a Division III university where anyone could essentially try to play a sport if they wanted. But after a summer of keeping to a strict workout regime, courtesy of a friend who was probably the most in shape person... Continue Reading →
How’s Your Sense of Character These Days? Mine? Just Trying to Keep It Intact Most Days.
The Merriam-Webster Dictionary defines Character as, “the way someone thinks, feels, and behaves: someone’s personality.” Throughout my life, my sense of character has been enriched and enhanced; pulled to the limits and tested; and probably like many, at times even called out and questioned by the very people who cause me to have to be... Continue Reading →
A Little Piece of Happiness, Compassion and/or Meaning
Over the last 12 years, I've come to realize a few things after you lose someone close to your heart. All you look for day in and day out is just that little piece of hope, compassion and meaning in everything you do to help the days go by easier. Because now I've come to fully understand the truth about life... Continue Reading →
Control seems like such a useless word sometimes
The craziest thing about people wanting to be in control of everything is often the very thing they want to control isn't really theirs to control in the first place. Control is such a relative term too. Because you can try to control so many aspects of your life, your kids' lives and maybe even your spouse's... Continue Reading →